Just been thinking lately. My entire life right now is devoted to surviving, but what future lies in that? What's the point in continuing, I have no real "goal". If I keep running, I will live. But it will be an empty life. I live to live, basically. I need to find a purpose, i'm not going to stop running or anything. I just need a clear goal. Every other blog had a type of plot driving overarching mission or duty. I just run and tell stories about how fucking stupid I am. I don't try to save people, I don't try to kill it, I don't try to experiment with it any more. I am nearly worthless. I can't really explain it, its just one of those things you have to experience.
Right now, I need to focus on... Well damn, not a lot to focus on.
Just noticed I got a new follower, Doctor Mengele. Not entirely sure thats good.
Hey man... Thanks for your advice again.
ReplyDeleteDo you think we could like, form the group like you said?
I don't live TOO far from Maine, and since you move often, you might wind up 'ere.
Don't lose your sight dude, find your goal and complete it. Like you said, just thinking about it is the start of the descent.
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Jesus FUCK what the hell is going on with you? Two weeks ago you could at least TALK comprehensibly.
DeleteI think you know exactly what is going on.
DeleteTrust me, Adam, you will have much to focus on soon.
ReplyDeleteEnjoy the silence while you can. It is the eye of the storm.
I can't enjoy the silence, it might be better than other things, but it means more is to come.
DeleteLooks like you have a second anonymous commenter...I wonder what that entails?
DeleteI don't think there are many goals actually out there. People attempt to study, to fight, these things are as nothing.
cannot fight the unbreakable, cannot study the infathomable.
cannot run from the inescapable.
Second...?
DeleteGreat.
Crush the uncrushable break the unbreakable.
valor alone does not produce these results. It just ensures you fall further. Konaa's starting to see it.
DeleteWho is Konaa?
Deletehttp://somethingtoleavebehind.blogspot.com
ReplyDeleteAhh, I remember now.
DeleteKonaa is a unique name, I shouldn't have forgot.